Happy Birthday My Love

•June 3, 2009 • 4 Comments

Another late post.

If anyone ever tells you that studying is good for you, don’t believe them.

I think my brain is fried.

Anyhoo, back to Pete’s birthday.

Pete’s birthday was on the 26th of May and he was very specific on what we should do on his birthday so I just tagged along..

Pete is a huge fan of modern art so he decided we should WALK from Waterloo station all the way down to Tate Modern. On the way, we stopped by a really cool canteen type restaurant and had lunch. It was really cool as the food was served in cardboard boxes.

Pete ordering food

Pete ordering food

Our food came in little cardboard boxes

Our food came in little cardboard boxes

The Tate modern used to be an old power station and what a beautiful building!! It had these beautiful gigantic windows and many many interesting levels depicting different eras and themes of Modern Art.

The Front of Tate Modern

The Front of Tate Modern

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Beautiful gigantic windows in Tate Modern

Beautiful gigantic windows in Tate Modern

We weren’t allowed to take any pictures of the artwork in the galleries. We saw a beautiful Monet  called the Waterlilies and some of the statues were beautiful. Some of the art though were admittedly weird and surreal. Pete and I spend most of the time making up names for the weirder ones, ‘Chicken Tikka Massala Puke’ and ‘Splattered ‘Boobies’ are my favourites!

After a few hours of happy art viewing, we made our way over the Millenium Bridge also known as the Wobbly Bridge. Pete tells me the bridge doesn’t wobble anymore after a dangerous wobbling incident in the past.. ( I was very dissapointed!)

Compulsory posing on Wobbly Bridge

Compulsory posing on Wobbly Bridge

Birthday Pete!

Birthday Pete!

Our next destination was St Paul’s Cathedral on the other side of the bridge, one of Pete’s favourite landmarks in London. I’ve never been so it was an adventure.

The Famous Dome

The Famous Dome

You do have to pay to go in but believe me, it is worth it. It is very beautiful and peaceful. And SO MUCH GOLD LEAFING!!

Look up and you see this!

Look up and you see this!

There were many tombs and statues of famous people but I was only interested in one. John Donne, my favourite poet of all times! I’ve been a fan of Donne’s since studying him for A Levels. There is a sincerity and raw humanity in his poetry that I haven’t seen in other poets. His words are powerful and never fail to move me and were a comfort on countless times when I felt disillusioned or sad. He was the Dean of St Pauls in 1621 and he was rumoured to be buried there. A statue was built in his memory by Nicholas Stone commisioned by Donne himself as he lay dying. It depicts him covered in his death shroud with an urn at his feet.  We found him in the corridor to the left of the big altar. As I stood gazing up at his peaceful face, I felt overcome by emotions and cried.

John Donne's Monument

John Donne's Monument

Pete thought it would be ‘fun’ to make our way up to the Whispering Gallery… What he didn’t tell me was we had to climb over 200 steps to get there! We weren’t allowed to take photos upthere but it was incredibly beautiful! There is a myth that if two people stand at opposite sides and whisper to the walls, the other will hear it. Pete and I tried it but we didn’t hear anything. Above the Whispering Gallery is the Stone Gallery, a viewing balcony running around the outside of the dome. Another 180 steps up! It was worth the climb though, the views were spectacular!

The Stone Gallery

The Stone Gallery

You could see the Tate Modern and the Wobbly Bridge from there!

You could see the Tate Modern and the Wobbly Bridge from there!

Could you see the London Eye?

Could you see the London Eye?

After climbing down over 300 something steps, we went down to the crypt and the gift shop. In the middle of the crypt was Nelson’s tomb and other famous men. It was surprisingly not very eerie as it was very well lit. We had coffee in the cafe and inspired by Donne, I grabbed these two books from the gift shop. The small book is only a pound and I can keep it in my handbag whereever I go and the bigger book is Donne’s biography.

Donne-tastic!

Donne-tastic!

Heading home, we took the tube down to Holland Park. The sun was just coming out and we had a romantic walk through the Park. We did find these awesome Tortoise Statues and could resist posing for a picture!

Pete on Tortoise

Pete on Tortoise

I am a lady so I side saddled it!

I am a lady so I side saddled it!

We got home quite late and by now, my feet were burning! We had a quiet home dinner and snuggled down for some tv. I did have a small surprise for Pete though, he didnt want a cake so I compromised and bought (yes, bought! Not made as I just DONT have the time!!) an eclair and a strawberry tart to share!

Seven candles! You work it out!

Seven candles! You work it out!

All in all, I think we had a pretty amazing day! Happy Birthday My Love!

Just for you, My favourite Donne Poem!

THE FLEA.
by John Donne

MARK but this flea, and mark in this,
How little that which thou deniest me is ;
It suck’d me first, and now sucks thee,
And in this flea our two bloods mingled be.
Thou know’st that this cannot be said
A sin, nor shame, nor loss of maidenhead ;
Yet this enjoys before it woo,
And pamper’d swells with one blood made of two ;
And this, alas ! is more than we would do.

O stay, three lives in one flea spare,
Where we almost, yea, more than married are.
This flea is you and I, and this
Our marriage bed, and marriage temple is.
Though parents grudge, and you, we’re met,
And cloister’d in these living walls of jet.
Though use make you apt to kill me,
Let not to that self-murder added be,
And sacrilege, three sins in killing three.

Cruel and sudden, hast thou since
Purpled thy nail in blood of innocence?
Wherein could this flea guilty be,
Except in that drop which it suck’d from thee?
Yet thou triumph’st, and say’st that thou
Find’st not thyself nor me the weaker now.
‘Tis true ; then learn how false fears be ;
Just so much honour, when thou yield’st to me,
Will waste, as this flea’s death took life from thee.

Polycystic Ovary Syndrome

•May 18, 2009 • 7 Comments

Finally, after so many years of asking why – we have an answer.

Pete and I have been trying to conceive eversince we got married five years ago and it has been a difficult journey. I guess I have always felt immense guilt over not being able to conceive while friends and family seem to do it effortlessly.

There is a stigma that surrounds infertility, barren women often portrayed as empty vessels, failures. To be loathed and pitied by society and I fought very hard not to be labelled so. People look at us in pity when we say, no, we dont have children yet but we are trying. A dialogue that often goes like this -

‘have you tried traditional medicine, I swear it works.’

‘My sister in law was on this wonder drug and she is pregnant now.’

‘It’s your cats, people say that if you have cats, you will have problems having children.’

‘Oh thats a pity. because your children would have looked lovely..’

Well meaning words, I am sure but often to us, more like thorns grating away at an already vulnerable topic. It is not like we have not tried, we have tried every traditional and modern drug available, we have sought numerous ‘experts’ and no one has given us an answer to why. Yet, every single ‘expert’ we see continue to feed us hope, that it will happen soon.

Once, I even got attacked by a well meaning friend who confronted me in our quest to become parents, we have put our own life on hold and she was concerned that we were putting ourselves in danger of continually being conned. She asked ‘Would life be so bad without children?’

For me, the honest answer would be ‘yes’.

So while we are in the uk, we decided to look for help one last time. After being on the waiting list for several months, we finally had an appointment with a fertility clinic in March. They made us do numerous tests and scans for months afterwards and last week we finally had a result.

I have PCOS, basically cysts on my ovaries that refuse to turn to ovulating eggs. When the doctor rattled off the symptoms, I was astounded at how many I had! Difficulty sleeping, high thyroid levels, sudden weight gain, acne, thinning hair, the list went on and on and I was mentally ticking each one in my head.

So now it has a name – that monster hidden in the closet for so long is now named. We can take it on, we can hopefully defeat it. I am on medication and hormones now and there will be yet MORE tests to do before we can proceed. But yet again… the doctors are hopeful and so are we.

If you would like to know more about PCOS, click here

The Battle of my toes

•May 9, 2009 • 3 Comments

Sick and stressed over essay. Gone a bit mad. Enjoy!!

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Curry Fever

•April 27, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Finally got around to doing a food blog!I tend to concentrate on one recipe at a time making it over and over again until I either perfected the recipe or Pete cries for mercy because he can’t eat the same dish for the twentieth time. :)

Lately, I’ve been playing around with curries. I’ve made beef rendang, Bruneian curries, red curries, yellow curries and I finally found a favourite and here it is!

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Green Thai Chicken Curry with Chick Peas and Wild Rice

God, this was delicious and so easy to make! It’s especially good if you add a dash of lime juice right at the end before serving! Yum!! And (minus the can of coconut milk), its very healthy!

Here is the recipe:

Chop a few cloves of garlic, shallots and a red chilli, fry in a little bit of oil until fragrant.

Add 2 tbsp of Green Curry Paste and fry a little bit longer

Add two chicken breasts cut into cubes, coat with green curry mixture

When coated, add 400 ml of coconut milk, 1-2 Tablespoon of fish sauce and a dash of lime.

Add a can of chick peas

Serve with wild rice

Try it and tell me what you think!

Happy birthday Adam!

•April 16, 2009 • Leave a Comment

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Happy Birthday to little Adam!

My little nephew is ONE.

My sister says that he has grown into quite a charmer, batting his eyelids when he gets scolded.

He also bites.



GORGEOUSLY AWESOME

•April 8, 2009 • 1 Comment

Reading and writing madly at the moment with 10500 words to write this month…. breathe…

I just received a really funny email from my friend Neil that I just wanted to share with you. During my visit to Scotland, I noticed Neil saying GORGEOUS .. A LOT!!  That I began to subconciously mimic him. He also objected to my use of the word AWESOME… he said the correct context to use AWESOME is only when referring to Nature and nothing else. THe Grand Canyon is awesome but a pizza is not..

Just to irk him a little, I wrote this email to him today..

Dear GORGEOUS,
I am feeling GORGEOUSLY sore after horrible boxing lesson last night, GORGEOUS Pete joined me. GORGEOUS boxing gloves came in the mail just in time and I felt GORGEOUSLY AWESOME in it.
The weather has been GORGEOUS so we keep the blinds closed so that we can work without being tempted to go outside. I have to stop eating GORGEOUS curry as my GORGEOUS insides cant handle it!
GORGEOUS assignment is moving at AWESOMELY slow pace. Want to kill self…
Hoping you have a GORGEOUS DAY! Love you AWESOMELY loads,
Adrina
Hehehehe, was really really pleased with this email!

I think his reply  which I received just 5 minutes ago is just AWESOME!!

Hello sarcastic-arse!
Well I definitely get the message, even if it was so subtle as to be almost subliminal! And you should be sacked immediately from your course for your inappropriate use of English-how in the good Lord’s name can you be ‘gorgeously sore’ or love someone awesomely-yours lady is an ongoing crime against good grammar and if I have to visit, if only to improve your English, then I will! Now fuck off and get some work done,preferably in improving your grammar and I can assure you that nothing again in my life will be gorgeous, love you despite myself,Neilxxx


Oh, the small things in life can bring you so much joy!

Hope everyone has a GORGEOUSLY AWESOME DAY!!

Boxing, Gliding and a new passion!

•April 1, 2009 • Leave a Comment

14_rJust thought I should update you on how my quest on exercise is going…

This is my personal trainer Mosley. He is a former WBF Super Middle Weight Champion and is really really scary! In a bid to get fitter, he trains me  twice a week.  He doesn’t take any nonsense and challenges me until I can barely stand up by the time we are done. He is about 6″6 and I am 5″2 so he really towers over me!

He is an incredible trainer who coaxes, bargains and pushes me to do things I find quite daunting. As a professional boxer, he has incoporated some boxing in the training sessions and I have begun to really enjoy them! So much so that I am investing on my very own pair of boxing gloves!! We do sets of really horrible core exercises on the mat and also a few exercises on machines.

I’ve had three weeks with him so far and have found subtle differences in my body and energy levels. On my way to uni, I have to change trains twice and have to ride up and down four escalaters at the interchange in Westminster. A few months ago, being almost late for class and the escalator full of people, I decided to use the stairs… BIG MISTAKE!! I was so out of breath, it made me feel quite ill so I hesitate to use the stairs for a long time. Yesterday, just to see if I could, I used the stairs for all four escalators and felt completely fine! It was a huge milestone for me and I couldn’t stop smiling for ages. I am on my last notch on a belt I bought in January… will have to buy new belt soon! :)

I am still going for classes at the gym.. my favourites are gliding and aqua aerobics.. seriously a lot of fun! I plan to try a few more yoga and pilates lessons but Mosley prefers if I just concentrate on gym work for the moment.. I will do as he says as he is not one you should cross!! Trying to also squeeze in some swimming too . Who would have thought I would turn into such a gym bunny?

The food diet has its ups and downs. Mosley has instructed to have no carbs after 4pm and no food after 7pm. God, how my tummy rumbles by 9pm!! I have to eat small pieces of fruit just to keep it quiet! There are a few days where I have broken the rules … I mean seriously, you cant eat chicken curry without rice right? or steak without chips? Will try to do better in the food department!

Which reminds me, since I started this blog as a food blog, I noticed I havent really posted anything about food for a while! I guess the focus in my life has changed dramatically in ayear that food has taken a backseat to other things. For this, I do apologise. Will post some recipes very very soon! I have found a new healthier love .. not cupcakes but something else that begins with a ‘C’…. I won’t talk about it now, you will just have to wait next time! Hehehe

Where Lullabee’s name came from

•March 28, 2009 • Leave a Comment

It was easy to find a name for Lullabee.

When she was still a kitten, Lullabee hated the rainy season and got so upset by the sound of thunder so to calm her down, I would hold her and sing soothing songs. This song is one of my favourites and after a while, I just called her Lullabee….. and I think it suited her well.

Lullabee

Lullabee, lullabee
Honey bees in the tree
Rest your wings ’til the morning light
Lullabee, lullabee
Honey bees in the tree
Your honey is safe tonight

Just dream to the tune I am singing
Time to stop all that buzzing and stinging-ouch

Lullabee, lullabee
Honey bees in the tree
All I want is a smackerel or two…(or three)

Dont’ sleep lightly, sleep very tightly
Happy slumbers to you

Sleep well my darling little Lullabee

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Lullabee is gone

•March 26, 2009 • 5 Comments

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My Beautiful Lullabee

March 2002 – March 2009

My beautiful little girl has gone. I got the sms from little brother not five minutes ago. The tears that flowed so freely yesterday will flow again harder today. My only regret is that I wasn’t there to say good bye to her. She was a delightful cat, extremely clever and always followed me around the flat constantly.  When we threw paperballs to her, she would swat each one with the skill of a professional footballer. She even managed to headbutt one back to Pete.

When we held her, she would squirm and wriggle for a bit then completely surrender to the loving, flopping joyfully in our arms. When I was ill for a long time, she was a constant companion by my bedside, meowing worriedly everytime I was in pain and patiently sleeping next to me through very lonely nights and days.

I shall see you at the Rainbow Bridge my love, my darling little jewel. I hope we have done our duty and given you a happy life as you have brought us so much joy everyday we were lucky enough to have you.

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together….

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Lullabee

•March 24, 2009 • 5 Comments

p6250037Just received news that my little Lullabee is ill and I am sick with worry. She has refused to eat for a few days, even her favourite chicken! I’ve asked my little brother to take her to the vet and now am pacing the floor just wishing her better. She is such a sweet active cat and I do love her dearly. God! I wish I was home to look after her.

….worry worry worry worry worry…

**Update**

Amar has taken my little Lullabee to the vet, she is very very ill. Vet says her kidneys are swollen, she is very dehydrated and he only gives her a 5% chance. She has to stay over tonight at the vets so tha they can look after her. She is on drips, antibiotics and vitamins.

The thought of her struggling to survive in a strange metal cage away from me is torture. Please let her live, and if she suffers, please let her leave in the arms of someone kind and full of love.

I am a wreck today, just a week ago I was comforting a friend for losing a pet he loves. I fear I may have to go through the same thing.

I am so sorry I am not there Lullabee,.